I’ve decided to try out 5 Fandom Friday posts again, annnnnd I picked a rough topic. Just because 2016 was awful.
This week’s 5 Fandom Friday prompt kind of hits home for me.
Honestly, 2016 was rough for me. Most of the year was ‘meh’ or ‘ok’ personally, but I’m very politically alive, and 2016 beats me to shreds. I feel like I cried a lot, and was very emotionally drained all the time.
However, like a phoenix from the ashes, I hope to arise this year in higher spirits.
My theme for the year is just getting better. I wanna get better (which is also a good song).
Currently, I work in a combo university/hospital system, and recently the hospital system’s motto change. They mention that ‘best’ is a destination, but ‘better’ is a quest. I feel like it was a bit pandering, since they’re one of the best in the nation, but they’re right. You should always strive to do more, be more than you were, in whatever capacity that means. I’m taking a queue for their marketing campaign (which, I’m sure is exactly what they want people to do), and having that apply to my goals for 2017. I want to get better, you know?
1.) Time Management – This may seem like a blanket goal, just too vague to work, but I know exactly what I mean. There’s so many things that I want to do, but I can never get anything done, and I feel guilty all the
damn time. When I try to catch up on TV, I feel bad that I’m not sewing for my side project (GET EXCITED FOLKS). When I’m sewing, I feel bad that I haven’t cleaned. When I clean, I feel bad that I haven’t worked on my blog. When I work on my blog, I stay up late and am too tired at work. It just goes on and on and it never lets up and I just feel horrid all the time. So, time management is something I need to use. I’ve signed up for a course through my work, called ‘Getting Things Done‘ with the book shown and it’s supposed to help you prioritize things you need to do, either by the amount of time you have, the energy you have, the deadlines for things, etc. I’m hoping to one day stop feelings guilty, but for now, I just want to get better at controlling my time. I want to be able to actively realize that if I only have 20 minutes for something, I’m obviously only going to be able to do a little, and need to be able to stick to my choice. Otherwise, I flit around and end up getting nothing done. This is a big goal for me.
2.) Health – weirdly enough, I prioritize health in a weird way. What I mean is that I always assume I’m dying in some manner, and I’m terrified of dying, but I also do nothing in particular to avoid that feeling. Kind of a self fulfilling prophecy. This year, I want to focus on my health more, including my mental health. I want to get my fillings done, get back on medication, and start going to the gym again. That’s just a start, but it’s more than I’ve been doing. I just have a problem continually doing things and keeping up the habit. Once I’ve done a bunch, I feel like I should be let off the hook for a while, and that’s where I run into problems.
3.) Reading – I always say I love to read, but when I take a book tally at any point, I’m always disappointed. I really want to get back into reading more, but like I said, there always seems to be something else I need to do. I want to read so much more this year, and I need to start with a goal. I think a simple goal, because of the ease of readability, that I’ll start with 100 manga books. I’d say regular novels, but then I’d get discouraged if I was behind and stop all together (I know how I am) and I’d rather stay the course. Maybe that can be a new series post for me this year? The 100 mangas.
4.) Travel – Again with the vague goals, but I’m serious. I LOVE traveling. I love everything about it. Driving, flying, staying in hotels, hanging out in airports, not understand transportation. I seriously love all of it, and I want to do it more. I have a few trips planned this year, but they often don’t flesh out. This year, I want 3 trips to places I’ve never been before, even if they’re small. Like, I live in Chicago, and Milwaukee is like 2 hours away, and I’ve never been there , even. 3 Trips to places I haven’t been to before, for sure. Otherwise, I’d use travel to my fam. as a crutch and not go anywhere new.
5.) Career stuff – I’ve had a full time job for about 1.5 years now (which isn’t long, but I did just finish grad school in mid-2015). WHen I first got hired, it was as a contractor, so I was just focused on getting hired. Once that happened, I figured I was set, at least for a little while. But, now I’ve grown a little starved at my job. I feel underutilized in some areas, and overutilized in others. Since I’m in IT, interacting with users (although they’re just regular people) can really wear on your state of mind. I really liked my job, but now I feel like I dread Mondays the same as everyone else, and I’ve lost a lot of motivation. So, I want to do better there, too. More career trainings, more certifications, maybe even turn my side project into a second job. Who knows.
Who knows where the year will take me.
I just hope it’s a good one.
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